Complicated

I got the job!!! There's just one problem, I still haven't found a daycare that I like. Well that's not entirely true; there is one that I really do like it is just wayyyyy out of our price league. I would be working only to pay for childcare. Not exactly what I was thinking. I only want to work 2 days and sometimes 3; but most providers want a 3 day minimum, and to know what days she would come. I just don't know what to do, I don't want to leave her just anywhere; I mean Gabrielle can be very "active" so I need to find someone who knows how to handle that kind of personality. I'm trying to be positive, but it's not easy. I've done that kind of babysitting for more people than I can count, and now I know why, no one else does it!
I am torn between being excited about having a job, guilty about not wanting to stay home anymore, and stressed about not finding childcare. My stomach hurts just writing about it. I think God is going to have to have a big hand in this if it all works out.