Fake it 'till you make it

Well if you don't know by now, we didn't get the house. I was really surprised, we offered the builder his asking price, the only thing we wanted was for the fencing to be put up; he regected it, and as far as I know, it's no longer on the market. I really don't take disappointment well, when Jaime gave me the news I felt like someone died, I felt like such a dork to take something so material to such an emotional level. I felt horrible for wanting something so badly that wasn't a need, and on the flip side of that I was mad for not getting what I wanted. I really wish I could be like Jaime and just say, "well it wasn't God's will for us right now." and just get over it without all this resentment. Right now I'm at the "fake it until you make it" point. I just keep reminding myself of all the really great things about our house and all of the other things that I have been blessed with. I am still really needing prayer right now, that my heart will be in the right place about all this.